A Personal Journey—Reflections on Change

A comment was made recently about how much I had changed in the past few years in the area of same sex attraction.

A few years ago the struggle was often intense and persistent. Few days would pass without my being challenged. I always recognized the struggle and did not pretend it was no more. The ‘church’ looked for complete healing in me. People commented on my associates, how I dressed and acted. Few sought to know me or my journey in God. I grew to realize that my journey needed to be done in my time, not theirs.

How I dressed and with whom I associated was actually an [inadequate] reflection of what God was [actually] doing on the inside.

On the inside I became reliant upon Christ and developed a passion for Him beyond my struggle. I cried out to God for support. My husband supported me through prayer and released me to seek out this support.

Healing progressed as I found support from women both in Australia and overseas, who had traveled a similar journey. Not
all have struggled with same sex attraction, but none of them are afraid to show affection in friendship. These women walk
alongside of me and encourage my passion for Christ. They reflected God’s love for me. They, like Christ, will not give up on me. This is not a short journey, but I accept that ‘change is possible’, and has become a reality as I have focused upon Christ and have
known complete acceptance by these women of God.

My healing is not yet complete but I have learnt to be content where I am in my journey, and praise God that He has brought so much change to my life.

“And not only that, but God himself is right alongside to keep you steady and on track until things are all wrapped up by Jesus. God, who got you started in this spiritual adventure, shares with us the life of his Son and our Master Jesus. He will never give up on you. Never forget that.”

1 Corinthians 1:9 (The Message)

Laurie Jean Wilson

Exodus Asia Pacific
Board Member